July-cleaning

The number of posts which I label 'my thoughts and emotions' is expending dangerously ;)

I know one day I'll feel more steady in London... but still don't know when this day will come ;))

I need to put in order some parts of my life because I'm not very happy about them...
It takes time, I know... 'Sometimes you just have to wait', I know, but I feel so impatient...
I need to get a job first and then I'll see what to do about love...

L is for the way you look at me...

My restless heart

I couldn't sleep tonight. And I was constantly waking up.
Lots of various thoughts are coming through my mind and lots of various emotions are coming through my heart. It seems restless today, like a bird caught in a cave...
My ideas about my life sometimes scares me cause everything seems new to me now.

Still haven't found what I'm looking for

Keep on sending CVs, cover letters, application forms... Boring...
Wish I could resolve my job problem quickly because, apart from the fact that I need some money, I have a feeling inside me that tells me to do something about my life... What do I mean? I'm still not quite sure but I believe my heart will tell me what to do when there's the right moment :) Can't wait...

The sweet smell of oranges...

Whitechapel Gallery will remind me of the intensive orange smell discovered in one of the boxes in Room 5...

Later, when I walked down Brick Lane, the sweet and heavy smell of incense was escaping from restaurants and shops...

'Life is like a pipe...

... and I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside'.

Walking and thinking...

The long walk alone made me think, although I tried to jam my thoughts with loud music... (if I go on like this with headphones in my ears all day long I'll be deaf by 30 ;] ).
The songs I chose yesterday turned out to suit perfectly for today:

• CHAMBAO Pokito a poko - I love it! :) Fantastic group and voice!
• SANTOGOLD Lights out - Sis, thnx for introducing me to her music! :*
  
• MUSE Supermassive Black Hole - this song is sexy, isn't it?
  
• ROYKSOPP Remind me - it reminds me my secondary school... amazing video!
  
• AMY WINEHOUSE Back To Black - sad & beautiful song...
  
• MUSE Starlight - I'm aMUSEd...
• SCISSORS SISTERS I don't feel like dancing - a night with bbq when we were dancing: me, Sis & Wolf :)
• JULIETA VENEGAS Me voy - sometimes I'd like to say this but I'm not 100% sure...
• GOLDFRAPP Oh la la - so energetic and powerful...
• GOMEZ Machismo - the redecoration we did in Warsaw still seems as if it were a week ago...
• AMY MACDONALD This is the life - ...
• RANDY CRAWFORD Street life - I love trumpets :)
• JOAQUIN SABINA - 19 días y 50 noches - I'd like a female version of this song ;)
• KOOP Island Blues - na na na...

While walking, the wind was blowing straight into my face... My brown earrings were moving like crazy...

Today I shared a smile with several people. I like smiling to an accidentally met person. Does it really happen by chance or do we look for a suitable person to smile to?

My life consists of decisions that I make without thinking much about them... Listen to your heart or First think then do? I'm like a child inside who is exploring what's good and what's bad... Too trustful, sometimes naive, thinking that everyone I meet on my way is honest...